Black Master, white sissy Part 2

'So I am supposed to go running after you? Who is the sissyslave around here, you or me?'

'I didn't know I was a slave, Sir,' I replied.

'Fucking hell', he said and laughed. 'Last time I saw you there was no fucking doubt about it then. Couldn't get enough abuse, couldn't get low enough, wanted to worship me, wanted to be changed, wanted to do anything. That right?'

'Yes, Sir.'

'OK, fucker, one last chance. You want to be my sissyslave then you come back here, same time, exactly one week from now. Understand?’

‘Yes, Sir.’

‘And remember, I want you as a sissy. I want you to look like a sissy whore.’

He kicked me one last time, on the backside, and left me lying there.

When I looked up, he had gone.

I was disappointed. I had gone through such a build-up in my mind, all that tossing and turning as to what I should do, how I could meet him again, what would happen when we did meet. Look, you have to understand that at that time I was used to getting my own way, having things on my terms.

After a few days I began to recognise that, far from being a disappointment, that second meeting had sharpened my appetite. I actually liked not having control, liked being told what to do. Also the fact that our one sexual meeting had little sex in it brought me face to face with what I had been avoiding. And that was, quite simply, that I also liked being treated like shit, I liked being abused and kicked and slapped around. This was hard for me to come to terms with, you know. It had been there through all my teen years and into my twenties but I wouldn't confront it, wouldn't look at it or acknowledge it. Now I had to. The truth was that I was beginning to identify with being a slave to a skinhead both from the physical and the mental points of view.

Then there was his race. The fact that he was black made the abuse more thrilling. The idea of him getting revenge for the way his race had been treated for centuries by whites, the reversal of expected roles - this was definitely part of the attraction.