Diary of a Sissy

Dear Diary,

This time I fucked it up for good... I am completely lost in the viscous cycle of sissy hypnosis. My beta girl nature was starving to be controlled by superior men. The desire to be owned was so intense that made me do something I have never done before in my whole life.. this time I exceeded the limits..

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I have now ended up in a situation where I agreed to be caged and hand the keys over the mail to my online master! The thrill and the excitement were profound. I was feeling alive.. I was feeling the ‘sissy high’ as I was now being in control by him and obeyed his every command so as keep him happy and don’t enrage him in fear of never returning back the key! There are no games anymore, it's my new life now sissy! The bizarre thing is that I started to love this new life.. this whole situation got me so wet.. it made me feel such a good submitted girl like all real sissies should be. I finally felt that I am progressing to the next stages of my sissification process.

However, as the days were passing by, things started to get real. I was becoming increasingly worried knowing that I have no control over my cock no more. I had to subdue my desire to get hard and stroke myself as this did not depend on me. My cock was becoming swollen from that tiny cage. Peeing has become an exceptionally difficult task. The basic human needs every person has are now under the authority of another man.. another man who although I called ‘daddy’ in the virtual world, in reality I barely knew him! I slowly started to realize what I put myself into. I was shocked when reality kicked in… What am I doing?! Have I entrusted the access to my private areas to a random stranger? What if he never return the key back to me? Did my lust for sissy feminization made me crazy?!

I tried to calm myself down.. I thought to myself that I have to accept the facts now and the facts are that I cannot touch my cock no more..