Porn Princess

And I didn't have Patrick's strict audition rule, although it didn't stop many of them offering to audition anyway, and who was I to refuse? Despite the fact that I was working even longer hours than I ever had before, the job did have quite a number of fringe benefits. One of which was access to porn stars like I'd never had before. Nearly every night there was another party somewhere in Hollywood that I was invited to, and it was always wall to wall talent, and every night I went home with sometimes 2 or 3 girls, who we either in the biz, or trying to rise up and work for one of the 'Big 5' studios. I really thought having access to this kind of quality pussy would help me sort of figure out my sexuality, and sort of find myself, but it didn't.

I was always awkward around women, I was always struck instantly by two feelings, first I wanted to fuck the shit out them, and then second, I wished I looked like them. Now, I had been dressing in private, ever since I was 9, and tried on my older sister's Bikini for the first time, and got the biggest hard on, ever. It continued throughout my teens. I would go through the bags of stuff she would want to give away to the thrift store, and pull out all the sexy stuff, and play dress up when no one was looking. When I got my own place I branched out, with some silicon breast inserts, and dressing up, curling my hair, learning to do make-up, walking around in high heels pretending to be a girl. But I never had the courage to do it in public, or come out to anyone. So I just played it straight. I had numerous bouts of self loathing, where I purged and threw everything out, but it never stuck. So, every night when I got home, after being with these beautiful girls, I would dress up, curl my hair, do my make-up, and fantasize about the sex we had, and what it would be like to switch places. I would then fuck myself with a small dildo, which was all my ass could handle.

Almost a year after I became head of production. The 'Big 5' threw their annual recruiting party.