Looking like a female makes me happy

I first dressed up in girl's clothes when I was around 10 or 11. As the years went by I started doing it more and more, but only when I was alone and nobody knew anything about me cross dressing. I loved it so much that it made me wet and horny, but for mention! Then I really got into it and started shaving my legs and armpits and even started painting my toenails. I've always had naturally long hair so I just styled it like a girl would. Then one day I got me a motel room so I could dress up and really make myself look passable as possible. When I finally got myself to look pretty, sexy and hot, I decided to go outside for a short quick walk because I really did feel like a pretty girl. I walked to the pool and then decided to go back to my room and when I got to my room some guy in a car honked at me and waved over and motioned for me to go to him and I shook my head no and walked inside. Then I opened my curtain and saw him looking right at me and that's when I smiled and motioned for him to come over. Then I closed the curtain and not even 10 seconds later the guy knocked on my door and I opened it without question and sat on the bed as he walked in and closed the door behind him and took off all his clothes and walked up to me and put his big hard cock in my mouth and I naturally got into it and he was loving it so much he was shaking and moaning and started to face fuck me nice and slow and then harder and harder as he finally came in my mouth grabbing me by my hair and holding my head towards him as I sucked out the rest up to the last drop. After that he came back later and turned me into a bitch by fucking me so hard that I cried and he fucked me for an hour and a half before he finally came inside me and by then I was loving it too much to even care. Now I'm here to show the world that I'm ready to be a female.