How I learned the pleasures of anal

So standing there he walked up to me and started touching me and telling me how cute and sexy I looked. This delighted me and pushed my desire for this to happen even more. He then took off his shirt and pulled down his shorts. He proceeded to place his hands on my shoulders and pushed me down to my knees. I was inches away from the object of my curiosity and desire and I can recall feeling (what I could describe at the time) of being a little dizzy/lightheaded. He grabbed it and held it with his hand and told me to touch it. I reached up my hand and put it around it, like I had my own so many times. He then told me to suck it. It wasn't large, 6” or so, but it was a decent shape and size. It fit what I wanted at the time.

I had known from playing with myself, that my capacity for anything “large” wasn't really there so I wanted to make sure it would be one that I could fit without feeling the pain that I would when I tried to use something too big. My body was so tense and rigid that I barely moved when grabbed my head and pulled me closer to it. Finally I opened my mouth and slowly started taking a little by little bit of it in my mouth. I had of course watched plenty of porn by that time and knew what I was “supposed” to do, but being so nervous and anxious about it, I could barely move. Finally it was all in my mouth and he slowly moved his hips back.

I had finally come down from being dizzy/lightheaded as I was before and started doing what I knew I was supposed to be doing. I had so much and yet so little running through my head at that time that I wasn't so much focusing on what I was doing, but more on what it meant to be doing what I was. I did find it sexually gratifying and enjoyed pleasing him orally, but I couldn't help my touch myself in the one place I really wanted to be touched…my ass. After a few minutes of having him in my mouth; feeling and tasting it moved across my tongue. I pulled my head away and said something to the effect of, “Can you please fuck me now”… this obviously excited him as he grabbed me by my shoulders lifted me up and then pushed me towards his bed. He bent me over and immediately started rubbing it between my ass, placing it gently but just rubbing over the entrance to me.