Harem Slut Nikki

It has been one year since I began making adult films. I have an exclusive contract with Drew Wilson, the porn director. In that time I’ve mad some 40 odd films and I’ve become quite the internet celebrity. There are tons of fan websites dedicated to me. I was nominated for a few adult video awards but lost them all because I only do anal and oral scenes. I have to say at first I was a little flattered by all the positive attention. It was beginning to seem natural to suck dick and get ass fucked, and I might even say I was starting to enjoy it even though I always knew, no matter how hard I tried not to think about it, I was still a straight man.
The problem with all the attention, with becoming a minor star is that it is now virtually impossible for me to go back to my old life. Sasha had always said that once she had enough money for law school I would be allowed to leave her and return to living as a man. She would even give me all copies of my stripping video. But this was much, much worse. Even if she did all that she promised, which is never a sure thing with Sasha, I have more people who know me as Nikki the slut porn star, than Nick the straight male. I would be ruined if I went back to living as a male and somebody found out.

Knowing this I made my best effort to live as a woman. During my first year as a woman I would get erections watching the beautiful strippers on stage, and I would retire to the bathroom and jack-off. But after awhile of constantly being fucked in the ass and sucking huge dicks, you begin to associate sex and arousal with the presence of another cock. It became harder and harder for me to masturbate to the thought or sight of women. Rather than deal with that I simply stopped masturbating. I hadn’t used my dick in many months. Sasha stopped calling me for threesomes with Ryan long ago, but even then my dick never made an appearance.
But like I said I decided to make my best effort to live, act and think as a woman from now on, it was better than living as a she-male. I was already numb to the feeling of hard dicks plunging in my asshole. I was already numb to the feeling of a slippery cock sliding across my tongue and down my throat, and I was already numb to the feeling of hot, sticky jizz splattering on my face or ass or down into my stomach. The next step was to just learn to enjoy it.