Being Catfished By Bigoted Bullies?

Okay women, have you ever been in a situation where you're not able to live as your authentic self yet publicly but you also have people in your orbit that KNOW you want to transition and make jokes about you for that? I have people who know me from my life where I'm not out of the closet as MTF publicly but who know my secret privately who think it's hilarious to catfish me online so they can laugh at me flirting with men and arranging to meet up with men (as a woman and not as a male), even screenshotting some racy pics I've sent and using those pics to make fun of me behind my back? I forgot how my identity as Allison even got exposed, but I thought the gay community was supposed to be supportive of these things since, you know... drag is a thing, But maybe they laugh at me because drag is about comedy, whereas Im approaching this from the desire to embody the beautiful, elegant feminine grace of a woman because that is what resonates most with who I am and who I want to be perceived as by the world. That includes being a *sexual* female as well, since I am not celibate and yes, I love to dress sexy and be desired by Men as a woman, I can't change that nor would I want to since I enjoy who I am, I know I need to get a thick skin if I'm ever going to go all the way with transitioning, I know. I just wish people had something better to do than catfish me just to make fun of me later in real life for who I am. I have so much respect for you out and proud trans women, I will say that